Alone

The sun is fading

The cars have all gone home

what could have been is over

was over long ago

But still the thought will haunt me

when I lie awake in bed

of what it would have been like

if everything was different.

But of course I cannot change the past

Its a history that cannot be erased

But the memories of you and me

will never go away

Even though I try to forget you

your a scar of mine that will not heal

These next few months

are a mixture of emotions

I'm moving out, I'm moving on

and the next chapter of life will unfurl.

But what sucks the most is that I wasn't there

for what this past year should have been

For all the fun my friends were having

and the experiences they had

I wasn't there for any of it

damn, I wish i had

I'll never understand why I had to leave

while he was the one who stayed

He became a high-school drop out

devoted his time to drinking

and became a drug dealer, addict

while I was the one that got sent away

to a place like rehab

Still I think of what it might have been like

to live that "normal" life 

to go to prom

graduate with a big high-school class

but whats the point

It'll just make me sad

I know I've come further than the rest

conquered more then the average 18 year old

hiked more than you could imagine

I've overcome the world that was killing me

I should be so proud

and my sins I did atone

but all I feel right now is

alone

Losing you

The times are changing
The dark grey storm clouds are moving in
The rain is falling, and
I'm caving in.
I knew everything was changing
and that soon it would have to end
But what I didn't see ahead of time
was possibly losing you as my friend
I've been displaced, I've been tossed out
But now you won't be there
when I come back out
all I want is for you to be happy
but what I want the most
is for me to be happy too.
I may never see you again
so when your off this summer,
just remember when we were kids
pretending we were fairies
in a place like neverland.
You'll always be a friend of mine
and I'll think of you oft,
just promise me you wont forget
the years we spent together as friends.
The countless nights we stayed up talking,
the tears we shared together,
The drama we caused and started
and the craziness of who we are.
I know you will do amazing,
any where you go.
Just be good, and smile,
and you'll do fine.
I know.

Poem by Dr. Seuss

Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places!
You're off and away!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You're on your own.  And you know what you know.
And YOU  are the guy who'll decide where to go.

You'll look up and down streets.  Look 'em over with care.
About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there."
With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.

And you may not find any
you'll want to go down.
In that case, of course, 
you'll head straight out of town.

It's opener there
in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen
and frequently do
to people as brainy
and footsy as you.

And when things start to happen,
don't worry.  Don't stew.
Just go right along.
You'll  start happening too.

OH! 
THE PLACES YOU'LL GO! 

You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.

You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don' t
Because, sometimes, you won't.

I'm sorry to say so
but, sadly, it's true
and Hang-ups
can happen to you.

You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
You'll be left in a Lurch.

You'll come down from the Lurch
with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then,
that you'll be in a Slump.

And when you're in a Slump,
you're not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself 
is not easily done.

You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted.  But mostly they're darked.
A place you could sprain both you elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out?  Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And IF  you go in, should you turn left or right...
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confused
that you'll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place...

...for people just waiting.
Waiting for a  train to go
or a bus to come, or a plane to go
or the mail to come, or the rain to go
or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or a No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.

Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a sting of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.

NO!
That's not for you!

Somehow you'll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing.

With banner flip-flapping,
once more you'll ride high!
Ready for anything under the sky.
Ready because you're that kind of a guy!

Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored.  there are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.
Fame!  You'll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.

Except when they don't.
Because, sometimes, they won't.

I'm afraid that some  times
you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win
'cause you'll play against you.

All  Alone!
Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something
you'll be quite a lot.

And when you're alone, there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.

But on you will go
though the weather be foul
On you will go
though your enemies prowl
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl
Onward up many
a frightening creek, 
though your arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak.

On and on you will hike
and I know you'll hike far
and face up to your problems
whatever they are.

You'll get mixed up, of course, 
as you already know.
You'll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never  mix up your right foot with your left.

And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3 / 4 percent guaranteed.)

KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!

So...
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,
you're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!