Alone

The sun is fading

The cars have all gone home

what could have been is over

was over long ago

But still the thought will haunt me

when I lie awake in bed

of what it would have been like

if everything was different.

But of course I cannot change the past

Its a history that cannot be erased

But the memories of you and me

will never go away

Even though I try to forget you

your a scar of mine that will not heal

These next few months

are a mixture of emotions

I'm moving out, I'm moving on

and the next chapter of life will unfurl.

But what sucks the most is that I wasn't there

for what this past year should have been

For all the fun my friends were having

and the experiences they had

I wasn't there for any of it

damn, I wish i had

I'll never understand why I had to leave

while he was the one who stayed

He became a high-school drop out

devoted his time to drinking

and became a drug dealer, addict

while I was the one that got sent away

to a place like rehab

Still I think of what it might have been like

to live that "normal" life 

to go to prom

graduate with a big high-school class

but whats the point

It'll just make me sad

I know I've come further than the rest

conquered more then the average 18 year old

hiked more than you could imagine

I've overcome the world that was killing me

I should be so proud

and my sins I did atone

but all I feel right now is

alone