Girl in the Lace dress

I miss this piggie

Alone

The sun is fading

The cars have all gone home

what could have been is over

was over long ago

But still the thought will haunt me

when I lie awake in bed

of what it would have been like

if everything was different.

But of course I cannot change the past

Its a history that cannot be erased

But the memories of you and me

will never go away

Even though I try to forget you

your a scar of mine that will not heal

These next few months

are a mixture of emotions

I'm moving out, I'm moving on

and the next chapter of life will unfurl.

But what sucks the most is that I wasn't there

for what this past year should have been

For all the fun my friends were having

and the experiences they had

I wasn't there for any of it

damn, I wish i had

I'll never understand why I had to leave

while he was the one who stayed

He became a high-school drop out

devoted his time to drinking

and became a drug dealer, addict

while I was the one that got sent away

to a place like rehab

Still I think of what it might have been like

to live that "normal" life 

to go to prom

graduate with a big high-school class

but whats the point

It'll just make me sad

I know I've come further than the rest

conquered more then the average 18 year old

hiked more than you could imagine

I've overcome the world that was killing me

I should be so proud

and my sins I did atone

but all I feel right now is

alone

Losing you

The times are changing
The dark grey storm clouds are moving in
The rain is falling, and
I'm caving in.
I knew everything was changing
and that soon it would have to end
But what I didn't see ahead of time
was possibly losing you as my friend
I've been displaced, I've been tossed out
But now you won't be there
when I come back out
all I want is for you to be happy
but what I want the most
is for me to be happy too.
I may never see you again
so when your off this summer,
just remember when we were kids
pretending we were fairies
in a place like neverland.
You'll always be a friend of mine
and I'll think of you oft,
just promise me you wont forget
the years we spent together as friends.
The countless nights we stayed up talking,
the tears we shared together,
The drama we caused and started
and the craziness of who we are.
I know you will do amazing,
any where you go.
Just be good, and smile,
and you'll do fine.
I know.

photography

I love my mum

there are happy times to come

the temple