Oh The Places We'll Go

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Goodbye Blog, Hello Website & Future blog

I created this blog in 2013 to be the home of my travels in Europe, it hasn't really done much else other than collect digital dust.

I have some cool things on this blog that I don't want to forget, so for now, It will remain.

Here is my website that I use for photography. I am also thinking about starting a new blog just for personal/lifestyle/religious blog posts that I have ideas for.

So Goodbye "Oh The Places We'll Go"

And Hello to the new beginnings that lay ahead.

Monday, June 22, 2015

Hey There!

Monday, July 7, 2014

How to put on your face

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Hope Heals: The Story of Katherine & Jay Wolf

Monday, January 27, 2014

Mormonism: A Christ-Centered, Global Faith

A little info about my Religion :)

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Sunset by the XX

I saw you again, it felt like we had never met
It's like the sun set in your eyes and never wanted to rise
And what have you done with the one I love?
When I look into your eyes, I see no surprise

I always thought it was sad
The way we act like strangers
After all that we had
We act like we had never met

We make believe, I've never seen your face, you neither mine
And catch my eye, don't register a smile
You were more than just a friend, oh but the feeling
It never came to an end, I can't bear to see you

I always thought it was a shame
That we have to play these games
It felt like you really knew me
Now it feels like you see through me

When I see you again
I'll know not to expect
Stay one step away
We will have to wait

When I see you again
And I'm greeted as a friend
It is understood
That we did all we could

I always thought it was sad
The way we act like strangers
After all that we had
We act like we had never met

I always thought it was a shame
That we have to play these games
It felt like you really knew me
Now it feels like you see through me

I feel like this with a lot of people in my life, not only guys, but girls who were my best friends, who now are just someone that I used to know. I feel like there are so many people that I was SO close to, that are just complete strangers now, but we aren't strangers because they knew everything about me back then, and I knew pretty much everything about them, but we never talk anymore. Its sad.
People come in go in Life, everyone is in your life for a reason, and some people will only be a part of your life for a short time, but maybe that's what you needed, maybe you learned something from them that will help you in the future when you knew them? Maybe they learned something from you? Sometimes I wish friendships never faded away, or that the people I loved so much in the past still said hi. But looking back at all the people in my life, I am thankful. I am thankful for every single person that has been there for me at some point, I'm thankful for all the people I watched movies with, or just talked to in class, or had endless sleepovers with. I'm thankful for the guys in my life who I once loved. I don't think back on any of my relationships with regrets, there is nothing I can change, even with the one relationship that got me sent away. I don't regret any friendships I formed, even if that person ended up hurting me. Because everyone that has been in my life, has been a part of making me who I am, and I wouldn't change the past for anything because the person who I am right now is evidence of all the people that have shaped me and molded me. Everyone in your life is a blessing, but some blessings are results of trials, like if there is someone who hurts you, either emotionally or physically or any type of abuse. That person indeed sucks! But they will get what they deserve. Karma is B*t#h. And you will be stronger because of the adversity you go through.

I think its helpful to be thankful, even being thankful for the bad things that have happened to you. It helps me to have a better perspective on life, a happier life.

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

My Bodies Journey

So, I've been home for winter break a few days now, and I was looking through old photos of me from around freshman and sophomore year when I had an eating disorder and weighed like 110 pounds. I was so tiny and skinny and even when I was obviously skinny I still considered myself too big, I always noticed my flaws, and I couldn't see how beautiful my body really was. I knew I was pretty, but I would get so mad at myself for the "problems" that I couldn't see all the great things, I couldn't love myself.

After going through wilderness and a therapeutic boarding school for other problems in my life, I was also able to address my eating disorder and start to love my body for real. During and After Wilderness I gained A LOT of weight, I went from 115 pounds to about 145-150 pounds, that's a 40 pound difference! When I saw myself for the first time in the mirror I just cried, I cried because I was fat, I was so big, I was chubby. And it was true, I had become very chubby, because I was in winter, outside, living, and hiking for 3 months, my body needed to gain weight so I wouldn't freeze to death. But I was so disgusted with my appearance, it hurt to look in the mirror for a while. I had grown so strong internally and emotionally and mentally, but my appearance bothered me so much. I thought so many times I could just throw up everything that I ate, just like I had done so many times before wilderness. But Summit, the theraputic boarding school was a place for me to continue to heal and grow and become stronger, I couldn't just cop out and start throwing up, I had to work to lose the weight, even if it took a really, really long time. And in that time, I had to learn to love myself no matter what size I was, and that was really hard for me. I was and still am my own worst critique, I judge myself more than anyone else ever would, I have my own standards for myself, internally and externally and sometimes I become too hung up on judging my out ward appearance that I lose track of what is really important to me, which is God, my Family, and my Friends, my Education, and my Happiness.

I know that so many girls out there struggle with eating disorders, so many girls struggle with loving themselves, they struggle with self-esteem and lack of confidence within themselves, they struggle with fat shaming, and always wanting to be skinnier. Because being skinnier, and losing weight surrounds us, it is what everyone seems to be after, "The perfect Body". But let me tell you, there is NO perfect body, all the models are photo-shopped in magazines, all actors and actresses are photo shopped in pictures, and many actors and actresses have to loss a lot of weight to be in certain roles, that's not healthy. The Hollywood skinny girl image is disgusting. Being a stick, doesn't make you beautiful.
What is beautiful is being confident, being healthy, being kind on the inside, and loving yourself no matter what you weigh. Girls with curves and fat will forever be more beautiful with girls that starve themselves and look like skeletons. Take care of you're body, if you need to lose weight because you are unhealthy, then work out! Being strong is sexy! Hit up the gym, work on your arms and your abs and your legs one step at a time. Don't over criticize little parts of you're body, because when it comes down to it, if you're body is working, if you're not in a wheel chair or paryilized or have deformities or a medical condition, then you're body is amazing, it can do great things, and you should love it fully.

Do I love my Body Fully? I hope that I can, and I do, but not all the time. I still catch myself judging my body, I fat pinch and wish I could be skinnier. But come January 2014 I am going to work my little tooshy off and lose weight at the gym, or maybe even gain weight since muscle weighs more than fat. But I vow to work out, to get some sweet arm muscles, and at least a 2 pack and to go running and build up my overall health and strength. Because being strong is important, we only have One body while on this earth, we need to take care of it and keep them strong and healthy, because when you're 80, theres not much you can do.

This is me at my smallest, I may look hot or whatever if you think so, But looking at these pictures my jaw just drops, I wasn't happy, and I for sure wasn't healthy. It scares me that this is actually what I thought was pretty, plus back then I still thought I was fat.

This was September of 2011

By December of 2011 I had gained ALOT of weight.

I seriously had gained 40 pounds, in 3 months! I hated the way I looked, but luckily the weight came off pretty fast.

These are from December 2011

This is about 4 months after December of 2011, so March 2012. You can see my face isn't round and chubby like before, and I'm losing weight. I am still a lot heavier than back in September of 2011, but here I am taking cute selfies again, which means I feel better about my body. And as the months go on in 2012, the weight keeps coming off.